dear mom,
"it seems like it's so difficult to connect with you anymore. I can't even joke with you. It's impossible for me to even say something to make you understand. And yes i may be a retainee but that doesn't mean you can call me stupid whenever you want just because i can't do such a simple thing in your eyes. Aren't a mom suppose to be encouraging but having you said i'm stupid isn't gonna make life any better you know. You love to accuse me and scold me infront of Grandma even for the simplest things. I've already said what i think i should say so it's up to you to accept it or not. I don't wanna keep arguing."-my text message to her.
So life isn't great when i see him online and i can't talk to him. I don't wanna talk to him. once i start, i can't stop. He's like a drug to me, a powerful one. I realized it's time to forget. I can't continue being like this, i'll die in the halfway of chasing something valuable. But, someone just has to sacrifice. As far as i'm concern, he's not which mean i am now. It's obviously difficult for me to do such a thing. Even if we are so close, he didn't even bother to look at me. He already showed the action of rejection earlier on. I was stupid to not notice it. Well he can do whatever he wants. No one can stop him except for himself.
c to the t from URL @ 6:20 PM
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