Life.
When someone say the word life, to me it's short. Life is short. We don't know when we'll die. No one knows, only God. He's the one who have already written how we're gonna/should die. Well i hope i'll just die like a normal human being. I don't wanna die in a war or due to some sickness. I'm afraid. So afraid that each time one talks about dying, i'll shiver and walk away.
ugh. It's just that i don't like talking about this. But i realized one day we still have to figure it out how our lives should be/end. I wanna die a good person. I don't wanna be a bad person. Well as far as i'm concern, i've made lot's of mistakes. I hurt people, i hurt their feelings too. But, you guys should know, i didn't mean to. It was unintentionally and i'm sorry.
Sometimes, life's so difficult that made one think about suicide. Honestly, i was one step closer to murdering myself. I can't take the challenges God threw it to me. But then i realized, things happened for a reason. Everything happens for a reason. i believe in that. And what i know is, God won't throw us challenges which we can't afford face it. He won't test us beyond our limits, and that's when we know we're strong to face all challenges.
Honestly, i don't like seeing him like that. Being so lonely most of the time when his friends are everywhere. Though i haven't been talking to him, i can feel that he's upset about something. Wait, i know what he's upset about. I just don't know how to help. Does he even need my help? All he need now is... her.
ughs stop it Ct!
Lastly happy birthday Nysa. ily.
c to the t from URL @ 8:08 PM
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