fustrated yet smilling =)
trying to cool down. alot of thing happened that made me struck real good.
- academics
- family
- friends
- relaitionship
- netball
- cheerleading
- external beauty
just imagine all these 7 points combined up together? What will happen to me if this carry on everyday? i will be crazy! and what happens when i'm crazy?! okay i think i really need to cool down. honestly speaking i know im not a confident person. not even one bit. i really can't understand myself, can't figure out of who i'm going to be, of what i'm going to do. situation like this come by that quick, it's like i'm used to it. use to being hurt and humilliated. the question is why? why must all this happen to me? must it be that bad? all i need is love. and it's you. it's you that can light up my life. and what happens? you're happy with her. to see you happy is also making me happy, but why do i feel like wanna cry? feel like i've lose something very special and expensive which anyone can't afford to lose. i don't know what my biggest mistake in life until this kind of situation usually happened to me. im feeling the don't know what feeling in me. what is that? sadness or happiness? ps: i broke my teeth and cut my lips. Labels: i pissed with myself
c to the t from URL @ 9:11 PM
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